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Weekend sendoff: When am I?

Thanks for sticking around despite my not posting in over a month. I’m not just dropping in to reassure you once again that I have no current plans to stop blogging, either. Newly Nerfed needs a little work, cosmetically as well as under the hood, and I’ll be making those changes as well as perhaps blogging more.

(There may or may not be a very hectic time in my near-ish future, so I don’t want to make any promises. And I’ll tell you about it once I can. No, I am not pregnant in any way.)

As I started to update the blog, I began wondering whether I could really still call myself newly nerfed. My health problems cropped up in 2003, and I finally had to stop working in 2008. And now it’s almost three years of reading, keeping up with research, and writing. Aren’t I now just…nerfed? I’ll be writing about that next week.

This month has flown by in a muddled memory of stress and uncertainty, excitement and good times. Life brought many distractions, including other writing projects and obligations…which are another reason I can’t promise consistent posts here. And that’s not bad at all; it’s just that having to prioritize my energy, I let a lot of it got sucked up into April without too much left for personal blogging. May may be similar.

If you haven’t already read it, I send you off with my guest post for SaveYourself.ca, a Canadian blog about managing pain. It’s about maintaining a romantic relationship when struggling with chronic pain and illness. (It’s not as depressing as it sounds.)

If you have already read it, well then, here’s a clip from The Sarah Jane Adventures. After Lis Sladen‘s death this month, it takes on a new level of meaning. (Which is more depressing than it sounds.) Goodbye, our Sarah Jane.

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Weekend sendoff: Oh, you again?

Yes, it’s me again. 2011 has not, so far, left me with much blogging energy. There have been major transitions, some still in progress. I am optimistic that things will improve, since I also have a few other projects I’m eager to get back to.

Anyway, I wanted to share two articles about CFS and XMRV that sum up the situation very well. Both touch on the relationship between patients and researchers. The first is from the Chicago Tribune, with a good summary of the state of XMRV research. The die-hards dislike this writer, but I think she’s seeing the big picture and the article reflects that: there are a lot of CFS patients who believe in XMRV, but the research is not yielding more evidence in favor of it.

The chasm between the WPI and its supporters and many in the scientific community is emblematic of a new, modern-day dynamic in which patients keep close tabs on the work of researchers and feel empowered to challenge that work and form strong opinions about the quality of it.

An editorial in Nature goes into more depth on this aspect, and exhorts both sides of the argument to listen to and respect each other. (The first comment, by Brian Foley, mentions different etiologies, something I harp on a lot.)

The challenge for scientists in this field, as in any other that involves patients, is to understand and be motivated by the plight of the patient community without letting their research be swayed by it.

Good reporting on this “mess” is great to see in mainstream media like the Tribune and The Wall Street Journal. However, I’m wondering whether CFS patients, who have tried for decades to shed the images of laziness, mental illness, and hypochondria, aren’t developing a new stereotype for themselves: mouthy and unswayed by science. Obviously, this describes only a portion of the patient community, but as I’ve fretted before, I believe the rest of us may be thought of as guilty by association.

I don’t really try to convince people of which side they should be on anymore. I only ask for clarity of thought and acceptance of solid evidence. If XMRV is proven to be implicated in chronic fatigue syndrome, I will accept that scientific consensus just as I’ll accept the other one that may be forming.

I recognize that there are political and scientific considerations that do cast a reasonable doubt on all the XMRV criticism, and which I don’t follow as closely as many do. I might not be informed enough about those aspects. I also have encountered very little medical resistance and have a doctor who is actually interested to find out exactly what’s wrong with me. Many of the WPI followers have been legitimately burned by their experiences with medical science, and I think they come by their suspicions honestly.

So I follow the science, and hope that the pro-XMRV crowd at least take it into account, which too many do not. Suspicion is okay; conspiracy theory is going too far. Just as people demand understanding and respect from their doctors, so should they reciprocate.

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Happy New(ly Nerfed) Year!

If you read this blog regularly (and thanks, all eight of you!), you might have noticed I haven’t been focusing as much energy on it as earlier in the year. This was due to a bunch of health-related stuff that happened after TAM 8.

Even though I don’t believe in New Year’s resolutions, with things having calmed down to some extent, it’s as good a time as any to resolve to put more energy into keeping up here — it’s not like topics don’t occur to me every day, but writing them down? Not so much. In addition, I’m going to be putting two new projects into high gear and hope to have them going within the next few months. And that may also be time taken away from writing here, but it’ll be worth it.

I hope 2010 wasn’t too much of a bummer and that you actually managed to have some fun and learn a lot of stuff, and enjoy good times with friends and family and so forth. I did, even though the year was a little rough for me, and my holidays went so well that I’m feeling optimistic about next year.

See you then — and seriously, thanks for reading.

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