Monthly Archives: October 2009

Dispatches from Azeroth

When geeks marry

We also made our grand entrance to the WoW theme. Everything else was pretty classy though

I was going to write more generally about online games, and then I realized that last week was my four-year WoWniversary. If you have a problem with that term, you’re probably not going to like the rest of this post.

I have a Pavlovian reaction to rainy autumn days in Los Angeles: I have to start a night elf alt in World of Warcraft. (An “alt,” short for “alternate,” is a character other than the one you play most often.) Four years ago, after I had already become something of an addict to City of Heroes, I finally gave into my then-boyfriend’s persistent encouragement and did what I said I’d never do: play “that game with the gnomes and dwarves.” I’m not much for Tolkien and the hand-me-down Blizzard — or Games Workshop, if you want to get into that debate — lore didn’t appeal, but the fact that I could play it on my Mac instead of Paul’s PC did.

Once united in deliciousness, now divided by faction

Once united in deliciousness, now divided by faction

I hate the stereotype of the female noob rolling a night elf druid since that’s exactly what I did before I found out about the stereotype. Yes, I wanted to turn into a kitty and a bear and maul stuff to death. (In my weak defense I am Horde at heart; it happened that my real-life friends were playing Allianceside.) I got sucked in, the way I have with no other MMO since — and I’ve played at least a trial for every major one out there, and in closed or open betas for others. Word to the wise: Hello Kitty Online is going to be awesome. But anyway.

I was never addicted to the game in the scaremongering way that the media often portrays. I didn’t forsake relationships or slack off work. While I was playing seriously, Paul and I got engaged and then married, and I went through grad school with a 4.0 GPA. WoW never took over my life in a destructive way, except for how you would not believe the stupid arguments a couple can get into when playing together sometimes. I just became enchanted with the world, and eventually with the challenge of raiding, which in “vanilla” (pre-expansion) meant contributing exceptionally bad heals in Molten Core.

Alliance cupcake sign by Teena, starring my hunter Regala

Alliance sign by Teena, starring my hunter Regala

My first computer games were Infocom’s text adventures, like Zork and A Mind Forever Voyaging, and the next best thing I’d found was the Myst series. I played the first game as an undergraduate, frequently staying up all night until I finished, entranced by what felt almost like a graphical version of interactive fiction. I played the sequel, Riven, with my friend Teena when we both lived in the San Francisco area, and we made such a good team that even after I moved to L.A., we played each ensuing sequel over the phone together. Later, I successfully hooked her on WoW by first describing how we could actually play together — in game! My mother in New York and I also played City of Heroes together. It is a remarkably fun way to spend time with people you rarely get to see, especially when you’re chronically ill and your social exploits are limited to begin with.

My main, Lyrala, has had enormous fun in the past four years. If you can’t tell from that link, she isn’t a particularly impressive toon. Through no fault of my awesome guild, I tend to solo a lot, which along with my lack of interest in player vs. player combat (PvP) precludes me from getting the best stuff.

Paul's label design with our Horde alts

Paul's label design with our Horde alts

Also, I have a lot of alts, a “bad” habit I picked up in CoX (which means both City of Heroes and City of Villains, now one game) where the character generator is the best in any game I’ve ever played. I put “bad” in quotes because though objectively my accomplishments aren’t much, I can’t manage to care since I mainly enjoy putzing around and doing what I want. This is also an excellent way to avoid burning out, because the game never feels like a job. Raiding was always mildly stressful for me and at this point it tires me out too much physically for me to want to do it regularly, so Lyrala’s just slowly levelling along.

Meanwhile, the onset of autumn as I’ve said, plus the announcement of the Cataclysm expansion, which will completely change the entire game landscape, has made me nostalgic for those beginning areas, almost exactly the way I can be nostalgic for real places. The combination of sight, sound, music — the music is a very important part of why I keep going back there — as well as story and character keeps me replaying old haunts the way I still play old Infocom games sometimes. The way I reread favorite old books, like The Phantom Tollbooth a few weeks ago. I’m looking forward to Cataclysm very much, don’t get me wrong. Exploration is my number one favorite thing about playing MMOs and similar games, and the prospect of having an entire new Azeroth to explore is so exciting I’m actually trying to curtail my alting (I wish I knew how to quit them) and finally get Lyrala’s blue-green ass to 80 already, so she’ll be ready for it.

But the October after that happens? I know I’ll be a little sad, never getting to go back to my first home in Azeroth again.

Lyrala rocking the Cenarion gear

Lyrala rocking her Cenarion gear

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Weekend sendoff: Lighten up!

I’d like to switch channels and get back to some of what the name of this blog implies: that which is nerdy. While I am a skeptigeek, and I’ve really enjoyed the discussions over the past couple of weeks, I’m going to take a break for some gaming on Monday. That is, I’ll be writing about online games.

I started out on this blog trying to make sure I replied to every comment, but I’m going to admit defeat, or less melodramatically a change of policy. There are times I dither over responses for longer than it takes me to write a Friday post, and in those cases I usually end up with something inane. As I mentioned before, I appreciate everyone reading regardless of whether you comment, so I hope you will in turn know that if I do not respond to a comment, it’s not necessarily a snub or an implicit disagreement. More than likely I’m just fatigued. I get that way. Kinda chronically.

In advance of Monday’s return to games, I send you off with nerdcore guru MC Frontalot‘s homage to the greatest games ever made, Zork and its interactive fiction descendants by Infocom. Also, this post was written to the dulcet tones of loud raccoon sex. Just thought you’d like to know.

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Good news is good

charles-schulz-peanuts-celebrate-the-little-thingsThe amount of writing and interacting I did last week helped push me into a crash, so it seems appropriate to talk about the interesting news that came out around the same time we blew up the moon and President Obama won the Nobel Peace Prize.

A study published online last Friday by the journal Science showed a possible link between chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS) and a retrovirus known as XMRV. The mainstream media, from the Wall Street Journal to the BBC, as well as major scientific organizations like the National Cancer Institute, reported on this story.

Even the small amount of data presented in these stories is enough to make a critical thinker cautious about the study and its implications. The study group was relatively small, and the findings of XMRV in only 67% of CFS patients makes it far from a smoking gun (especially given other retroviruses previously implicated in CFS), or something that warrants immediate treatment. There is also concern on the other hand, as mentioned in the BBC article, that given the disease’s variety among patients, a “smoking gun” theory is flawed to begin with. For more on the science behind this announcement, I recommend this article, and the analysis by England’s National Health Service, both of which discuss the findings with appropriate caution in their conclusions.

But there is something to be happy about here on a larger scale. I can’t remember the last time, and there might not have been one since I got sick, that there was so much mainstream media attention paid to a scientific study focusing on the etiology of CFS. It helps enormously to validate a disease that is still widely thought to be partly or entirely psychological in nature. (Did you notice that the NHS article was categorized under “Mental Health”?) I feel vindicated when the world sees that scientists are not only studying somatic causes, but making progress with their discoveries. From a purely PR standpoint, it’s a great awareness campaign. From a scientific standpoint, a potentially faulty study can inspire further research — and hopefully further research money — and the positive feedback loop continues.

oscar-lgUnless, of course, you are a questionable expert with an eponymous CFS treatment, such as Trevor Marshall, Ph.D. His protocol, which involves the complete elimination of vitamin D from the body in all forms, food and sunshine, is fringe science and rightfully controversial. (From a website question about why the protocol is not more widely used: “Furthermore it is more difficult to obtain acceptance of the Marshall Protocol because, like surgical operations, its efficacy and safety cannot be easily proven with double blind clinical trials.” Caveat emptor.)

Here is Marshall’s response to the news. He begins with some strange logical leaps (just because XMRV was not present in all CFS patients studied doesn’t eliminate all possibility of causality) and expresses concern about the results based on an opinion, but does manage to eke out a self-serving nod of congrats to a colleague. Then suddenly, he gets nasty. His ensuing comments are snippy and condescending, and he also expresses pride at supposedly annoying the editors of a respected journal.

As I’ve mentioned before, people suffering from chronic illness need to think critically at all times, no matter how tempting a treatment may look or how impressive an authority may seem. If Marshall finds the study utterly faulty, that’s certainly his prerogative and as I said, I agree there are problems with it. But there’s a lot to infer about a person who purportedly is interested in seeing CFS patients get better, yet who has nothing to say about the larger potential of this study, or the publicity, to positively affect people with CFS. Is he concerned about patients, or about the possible loss of his patients to a test or treatment that can be easily proven with double-blind clinical trials? His dismissive defensiveness is unseemly in someone who’s allegedly on our side, and I hope anyone considering his treatment takes this into account.

So, no, I am not heralding a cure, or anything like a cure. But to borrow some Christian vernacular, I am really happy to witness all this spreading of the good news. It should give us hope – not crazy, unrealistic hope, but well founded hope that there are people out there working to find parts of the puzzle. And hope that some people’s minds may be changed when stories like this come out. I’m a skeptic, but in this I believe.

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